Thanks for the sugestions, I could be the poster child of fear
I am begining to think its like a phobia, there is no logical reason for the fear. Most of the time at the red its a sport route. I look down, bolts a little below my feet, yes its nice and overhanging, no I'm not going to hit anything, no I'm not going to get my leg caught in the rope, I trust my belayer, I trust the equipment, just let go, easy right. I think Jeff might be right, start out small and work my way up to a big whipper! Baby steps! As far as screaming, I usually have my mouth open but nothing comes out.
I'm going to try to climb with people that are comfortable with falling, a little peer pressure couldn't hurt! Could be a long summer.