I would 100% agree that my personal ego is something I fight daily. I am OK with that push/pull dichotomy.
Take today for an example. I have the day off work, and inches of snow are being dumped all around..If I were a selfless person, I should be spending the entire day shovelling the driveways around my neighborhood until my back is tired. Not just the driveways of the elderly mind you, but even of those who had to go to work today. There would be no thank yous, since they wouldn't know who did it, but my inner sunshine would be big. So what do I do to ease that ego? I shovel mine and one neighbor, just enough to feel like I made a difference. I am honest enough with myself to know that I preferred the comfort of sitting warm and toasty inside over 8-10 hours shovelling snow. of course. that is the ego driving decisions. a selfless person would end up in the emergency room with a hernia from shovelling, but not me.
personally, I think that everyone is using the words ego and selfish in a deragatory manner, and not giving it a fair shake. Doing the small things at the crag (picking up litter, trail days, etc) are a person's way of satisfying the ego. that is not a bad thing.
being a selfless martyr is only honorable when no one knows. we all have a glimpse of that capacity within us, but it is fleeting.
btw, there are tons of examples of mega rich people doing good with their wealth, so "serving people" can take on many forms....working for shit pay is not the only avenue ya know. Bill Gates has done more than any other individual for world hunger and AIDS research.
and you know if you also fell off a route I'd help ya in a second, even if I hate your guts. but you'd get a bill in the mail later.
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